Home is where the heart is?

So I have been back in Canada for about a month now. I was in England for 10 days, and I must admit, its exactly what I needed. It gave me a chance to relax and refresh myself. It was the first time I had been back since September 2006, so just under 5 years.

Now, since I have been back, something just....hasn't felt right here. Work has been repetitive, and im really not enjoying it, not as if I enjoyed it before, but its been getting to me more and more since I have been back. Not only work, but I got a taste of the culture and a chance to be with my friends again, and I really miss both. I miss being able to go to the rugby on weekends, I miss the culture of being able to pop into the pub to get a quiet pint at night, I miss home....

I walk an hour each night home from work, so gives me plenty of time to think, while walking on Thursday night / Friday morning, the song 'All Together Now' by The Farm came on my mp3 player. The song pretty much sums up my feelings with me and my friends.

Now, that being said, I love my friends and room-mates here dearly, there's no doubt to that, and I know that I am very lucky to have them in my life. I do hope this homesickness passes, there is a lot of advantages to being in Canada over England, lots more opportunities and such. But being in England, I was really relaxed and refreshed, since I have been back, I have been the opposite...

Late night thoughts are a wonderful thing, eh? I don't know what to do... Should I go back to where I could potentially be more happy, and give up on my Canadian adventure, or should I stay, tough it out for another few years and see if things improve. Currently im thinking the latter, but with each passing day im reconsidering.... :(
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Wow, its been a long time

Dont worry, I am still alive, still reading friend's LJ posts but I haven't posted in here in about 6 months so figured I should. Just curious if anyone out here is still reading my journal? If so, cool, and I apologies for the lack of entries, ill try to update it more often!

Not sure what to put really. Still working for Rogers, have 3 new fursuits being made. Brandon (Snow Leopard), Addison (Billy Goat) and a remake of Stripes, which will be completed for July, November and November respectively :)

Heading over to England in 4 weeks for a visit. Its been way to long, 5 years since I was last back. Will be leaving Canada on 9th June and returning on the 20th. My plans while in England involve going to see some Rugby, Shopping, visiting friends and family, going to the pub a few times and generally just relaxing. My last real vacation was 2008 (non fur con) and before then was 2006, so its been a long time coming, and I certainly am excited to be home! Will post lots of pictures

Anyway, cheers for reading!

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Year End Meme, Review Time!

1. Was 2010 a good year for you? Why?
2010 for sure had its up and downs, but over-all I would say it wasn't too bad of a year

2. What was your favorite moment of the year?
Going to dinner with folks at Buca Di Beppo at FCN, Good Foods, Good Friends, Good Times... The rotating pope was something else!

3. What was your least favorite moment(s) of the year?
Having my heart broken twice by the same person

4. Where were you when 2010 began?
At a neighbors apartment, surrounded by many good friends

5. Who were you with?
Deramin, Bob, Madius, Cola, Frost, Firey, Tyler et many others

6. Where will you be when 2010 ends?
Probably the same place, with the same friends :)

7. Who will you be with when 2010 ends?
Same as above :)

8. Did you keep your New Year's Resolutions of 2010?
I don't keep them, so if my new year's resolution was to not keep one, then I did keep it....

9. Do you have New Year's Resolution(s) for 2011?
Probably get in better shape >.>

10. Did you fall in love in 2010?

11. If yes, with who?
Im sure most of you know

12. If yes, do they know?

13. Are you still in love with them?
Not anymore

14. You regret it?
I don't regret the good times we shared, just hated the heartache I had to suffer

15. Did you break up with anyone in 2010?

16. Did you make any new friends in 2010?
Plenty of them :)

17. Who are your favorite new friends?
Happy Fox Nick, Mr Dad, Raspberry Roo to name just a few

18. What was your favorite month of 2010?
I enjoyed July, world cup was on, nice weather....shame about the results from the tourny!

19. Did you travel outside of your country of residence in 2010?
Only once this year, poor for me!

20. How many different states / provinces did you travel to in 2010?
Only 1 :/ and that was Michigan.... lame!

21. Did you lose anybody close to you in 2010?
Not in a death sense, in a best friend, yes

22. Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Very much so

23. What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2010?
Toy Story 3

24. What was your favorite song from 2010?
Nothin' on You - B o B

25. What was your favorite record from 2010?
Plastic Beach - Gorillaz

26. How many concerts did you see in 2010?
I didn't see any :(

27. Did you have a favorite concert in 2010?
Nope :(

28. Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2010?
Not enough.... :)

29. Did you do a lot of drugs in 2010?
No drugs, im a clean sammy :)

30. How many people did you sleep with in 2010?
Thats rather personal

31. Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?

33. What was the worst lie someone told you in 2010?
That they didn't intend to lead me on

34. Did you treat somebody badly in 2010?
I did, and looking back I feel kinda bad about it

35. Did somebody treat you badly in 2010?

36. How much money did you spend in 2010?
Too Much

37. What was your proudest moment of 2010?
Setting a savings goal and achieving it :) Now just have to build my finances back up again!

38. What was your most embarrassing moment of 2010?
There wasn't anything in particular I can think off, im sure some people can remind me of some time.... probably when I was liquored up!

39. If you could go back in time to any moment of 2010 and change something, what would it be?
Really, there isn't something I would want to change. Things happen for a reason, no sense in changing the past, always look to the future! Carpe Diem!

40. What are your plans for 2011?
So far, the only concrete plans I have are that I will be visiting England in March for the 1st time in almost 5 years, and I shall be collecting my new fursuit in July/August :) Anything else is up in the air!
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Xmas Gifts/Cards

Seen a few people post journals about what xmas gifts they want in the hopes that people will give it to them. Maybe I should do the same, although that being said, I dont expect anything. If someone feels they wish to get me something, it would certainly not be turned down and be very appreciative. Feel free to msg me for address if you need it for gifts/cards etc

Back to being single

Thanks to everyone for the well wishes in regards to the recent news. Makes me happy to know there are so many friends out there, close and far, who care for me and my well being :) Im getting better every day, and having other activities to take my mind of the whole situation helps.

Im not one to hold any grudges, I wish her the best of luck in whatever she chooses to do next and hope she finds happiness in what she does.

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Good evenings furs, hope all is well. Been a few months since a proper update so decided to post a journal and such....

Work is busy, especially with the new Iphone 4 out - been pumping extra hours and overtime for the past couple of weeks, today I had to take a day off to recover as I cannot afford to be sick with a couple of cons coming up and the move to the new apartment

Speaking of new apartment, move in date is Aug 29th, its only about a 3 minute walk from the old place to new place, but moving stuff from the old to the new will be tedious and long, just want to try and get it done asap, as on the 31st Aug, ill be setting off for Camp Feral in Algonquin Park for a few days

The other con for me is going to be Condition, in London ON, which is this upcoming friday. Hosting a couple of panels and helping out wherever i am needed, going to be interesting, make sure you come out for the Sports Furs panel folks! :D

And, finally - after a few weeks of keeping it quiet, its time to announce that myself and Kitty are dating once more. Im sure this is unsurprising to a few people. However we spent a couple of months apart, evaluating what we wanted in life and the time apart was good for both of us. We will see where it goes this time, but I feel strongly that we understand each other much better now, before we were moving way to fast and its now time to slow it down, try again and take it one day at a time :3

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So, thought I would put a lil bit of an update up for those who are interested. Still getting used to being single, still have moments of nostalgia where I get down but its to be expected. If nothing else, I still hope that a friendship can be achieved out of this. However, with this time, I want to focus on myself and improve who I am, to make me a better person :)

Heading up to visit my parents on Saturday for a few days, also the World Cup starts soon so will be distracted with that over this month!

Summer plans include moving to a new apartment with my room-mates Cola and madius, helping with the running of the 1st Furry Con in London, Ontario - Condition Zero Hour (, plus going to Camp Feral in September.

Other than that, im the same old Sammy, been working a lot, going to the gym a lot, saving money for summer projects and hopefully going to enjoy myself this summer!

Stay frisky all

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Im sure people have already assumed by now, but me and Kitty are no longer together. I will not be going into details as to why. I am emotionally and physically fatigued, upset and heart broken, but ill live. We will still attempt a friendship, lets see where that takes us....
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